The body knows.
I am not ignorant to the stress of life. I know how the body reacts to drama and trauma â€” or joy and celebrations, even when the mind reacts in a different manner.
Iâ€™ve learned to stand inside myself, feel what I feel and do my best not to drown the feelings with outside substances. I know my centre. And right now, I’m tired.
I admit to being overwhelmed and realize I need to rest.
Ken and I are happy, very happy with the move to Sechelt. I am so grateful for Ken. He is a good man; I am lucky to call him husband.
Itâ€™s been just over two weeks since we moved in but, it feels longerâ€” we are home.
Years ago, one of the first big words I learned was cosmopolite. I was told (I didnâ€™t look it up until this morning), I was told it meant, a person who was at home any where in the world. I was very proud that someone had defined me as such. They didnâ€™t know that on the contrary, I had no home in the world, so I moved in where ever I happen to be, giving the impression of a cosmopolite! I guess I was destine to learn tai chi and find home no matter where I went or how I felt.
While the last two weeks have been good and full of change, in that same amount of time there has been great loss. Kimâ€™s death hurt my heart. My brothers death took me down.
Last night I slept for 10 hours and that was after a day of doing nothing all day. I sat on the sofa, read and watched TV. I watched a candle burn. I went through photos. I cried.
I am awake to my life, and for the most part how I feel in it. Right now, Iâ€™m very tired and just need to rest.