Have you ever been doing one thing and thinking you should be doing something else?
Getting my body and my head in the same place at the same time is a gift and something that takes a mindful practice. I think it is more the norm to be split than it is to be present.
Perhaps thatâ€™s why when we are present it feels so good.
Ever since I came back from New Mexico, I’ve felt split. My body is here and yet most of my thoughts are there. I woke up yesterday morning and I wasnâ€™t exactly sure where I was. It took a moment for me to get my bearings and realize I am in the house I call home.
When I was in New Mexico, I wanted to be here and needed to call on my practice of being present by actually looking at my feet to see where and how I was standing. For the last week since being home I feel I â€œshould beâ€ in New Mexico and am looking at my feet to see where and how I am standing.
But, I think I am looking too far away, because the split is not in where I stand. The split is between my head and my heart. So I need to give closer attention to the bridge that connects the two.
My throat, neck and shoulders need the attention right now; not my feet.
Being split this way is like chewing on a little piece of grizzle; I need to either spit or swallow, in order to clear the pathway, and get my bits lined up again. I don’t like just chewing.
Lucky for me â€” thereâ€™s a practice for that.