October 2nd, 2017 by Jan

My niece Kayleen has a bloggy she updates it once a month. Maybe I’ll try that.

However, if you know me, you know I tend to change my goals, way more easily than my behaviour, so while I’d like to commit to a particular writing schedule – I won’t.

I’ll write when I write. I’ll post when I post.

Today has been a roller coaster ride of ups and downs and I’ve buckled up.

Waking to the news of another mass shooting is heartbreaking. Waking to the news that it happened at a concert, in Las Vegas, was heart stopping.

My brother Art lives in Vegas now and, he goes to concerts.

He’s okay. He was home. He also reminded me when I called at 7 a.m. that they shoot people in Walmart  and movie theaters in the states, and that shit happens. But still……Nothing makes what happen okay or normal. 2nd amendment my ass.

Then I rode the roller coaster to the highest high a few hours later. I met my friend Sheila Haddad, who was in Sechelt for the weekend teaching. How fun!

I knew Sheila from my PAWMA (Pacific Assoc. of Women Martial Artists) days. She was just one of the amazing women who made PAWMA one of the most positive experiences of my life. She was one of the teachers that taught me how to fall properly, and she also taught me how to throw a knife!

Even though I hadn’t seen Sheila for well over 10 years, we fell into easy conversation and familiar comfort, as if we’d been to camp last week!

The women I met at PAWMA are life long friends, who taught me so much, about so much.

I continue to cherish them all. I’m grateful we will grow old together, even if we all grow old in different parts of the world. I salute.

Seat belt tighten – Tom Petty dies. Shit. Tom Petty was my go-to guy for road trips and dancing music.

Going down….now back up….

Now, I hear he didn’t die. But had a heart attack and is off life support.

Such a confusing day.

October 2nd; the birthday of a lot of friends. Gaby is another PAWMA friend who I once spent a perfect day with. Machelle, my step-daughter from my first husband, who I think of so very often, Kim, one of the cooks from the O, and even though he has been dead for quite a few years – Jurgen.  Salute!

I found riding out the events of the day more comfortable from the safety of our home. So I sat down.

Now I’m only getting up when the dogs need to go outside. I think I’ve a few more minutes to sit and catch my breath. But, I’m not taking the seat belt off yet, just in case.

No, I’ll stand my ground, won’t be turned around
And I’ll keep this world from draggin’ me down
Gonna stand my ground and I won’t back down — Tom Petty

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