You never really know what tomorrow will bring. A phone call or a word can change everything. Good can go bad â€” horrible can turn into the best thing ever. What Iâ€™ve come to understand is we all need to wait for tomorrow to know what tomorrow will bring.
This morning on the patio, (my thinking and practice place), I ran an entire week through my mind and the more I kept at it, the worse things got. I started ranting and raving and shaking my fist with righteous indignation. Then, of course it hit me. Iâ€™m making it all up. Nothing has happened yet and I was in a tizzy.
I donâ€™t know what is in store for me this evening, much less in the next 10 days or 10 years. All the imagination going on in my head is just that â€” imagination. My thoughts can take off and have a life of their own, but rarely does anything I think might happen â€” actually happen the way I think it will.
It is good to have a plan. It is good to have experience to fall back on and itâ€™s better to stay open.
I rattled myself to no end this morning about stuff that hasnâ€™t happened and probably wonâ€™t, and as soon as I recognizedÂ it – I settled down.
What will be will be.
Iâ€™m flying out to Vegas tomorrow to spend a bit of time with my dad. The plan is to see some shows and â€œeat at some buffets!â€ My super conservative Uncle Bob will also join us, as will my Aunt June. I havenâ€™t seen them since 1990. Experience tell me to keep my guard up, my practice tells me to keep my heart open.
Iâ€™ll do my best to stay present, and not get into any political or religious discussions. I will not point or blame, or start any trouble. Neither will I shirk or hide if my truth is challenged. My plan is to stay open to joy, good times and love. I will wiggle my toes often in the 37 degree weather, and I will know where my feet are. My plan is to stay in reality, or at least as real as reality in Vegas can be.
Now, Iâ€™m not really one to keep secrets, so if you come to read my stories, please know; what happens in Vegas, will probably not stay in Vegas this time.